Category Archives: Personal Journeys
My Thoughts on Being Gay and Being a Christian
I first came to the realization I was gay when I was about 22.
In retrospect the signs had been there for a long time but I was way too naive and ignorant to recognize them.
It was my home group leader who confronted me about it. God told her I was gay in a dream and He was spot on!
Suddenly the penny dropped – I realized the emotional entanglements I had got myself into with some of my girl friends were confused and misplaced and the huge expectations I had of our friendships were totally unrealistic.
Late Bloomer: Gay and OK
I’m what some might call a “late bloomer” in this department! (so advanced in all others, I can assure you!).
It wasn’t until I was 35 that I had feelings for another girl and had to suddenly deal with what I considered to be THE worst issue that could have landed on my plate!
Born and bread serious, bible-believing, fundamental Christian, and then having chosen that for my life’s center – church, Christian community, church leadership, etc. etc. – to have this issue as MY issue was just the worst!
Gay, Hiding Behind the Masks
Mine was a story of nothing as it seems. On the outside I appeared to be a great man of Faith, walking with God in pious devotion, but on the inside I was a man at war.
How does a young boy make sense of the fact when he looked at the Sears catalog, he would be turned on sexually when he got to the pages of the men in their underwear?
How about the the urge to be physically close to his male friends and men of significance in his life?
My Path to Live as a Gay Christian
I grew up with my three sisters in a Christian home. We lived in Te Aroha – population, three thousand. It was in this town that my parents separated and eventually divorced.
After the split Dad did visit with us on weekends and at least initially made an attempt to stay present in our lives.
It’s a difficult thing to maintain a sense of connectedness when you are miles apart and eventually we ended up distanced emotionally too.
Some would and have said, “That, Megan, is why you are gay. An emotional hardship involving your Father deserting you which had you, through a complex set of conscious and unconscious choices, reacting by rejecting men”.
